Sixth picture in the sixth file...

So I am not sure I have any readers other than Rachel, but Rachel tagged me on this, so I'm going to do it. Here is what I'm doing, I'm going to my sixth photo file and posting the sixth picture. Then I'm going to talk about it.. I had two ways to go here, I have some pictures that in my photos and some pictures that are in my shared files...so I picked the best one to talk about...


Okay, so this picture is from about 2 1/2 years ago. I went to West Virginia with a group from school. We went white water rafting and rock climbing. Obviously this is rock climbing. We had to propel down the side of a cliff. It was very scary, and I'm not going to lie I was pretty much in tears. This picture however is me pretending to climb back up. I wanted to get my picture taking and this is as far as I would go.

I'm not tagging anyone because I don't think there is anyone other than Rachel out there to do this and well since she already did, I'm not gonna ask her to do it again.

I ran a mile today!

Well I had earlier set a goal to run an 11 minute mile by my birthday. Well today I ran a mile in 12 minutes...without stopping! I'm so close to that goal that it makes me excited to reach my other goals. I had a really great workout today in addition to the 12 minute mile. I did 30 minutes on the elliptical and bike and then a total of 20 minutes on the treadmill. I also did the weight machines today...my arms are shaking from them I think. I'm glad to know that me working out has inspired others to do the same because that is how I got working out. Thanks to Jeni, I'm now setting myself up to change my life. Its not just about losing the weight, its about getting healthier and making better choices!

My very last day of Christmas break....ever!

Thank goodness! I am just wrapping up my very last Christmas break and getting ready to start my last semester.. This weekend was a decent weekend. On Friday, I worked all day and then came home and did some worrying...It wasn't my typical worrying, I was unable to get ahold of someone and I was worried that something was wrong. But nothing was, just an issue with a cell phone. Saturday I worked, then went to a newer casino. It was a good time. I took $100 with me and came home with $300. Not to shabby! Too bad it barely makes a difference due to the fact that my hours have been cut at work due to my school schedule. We got home kind of late last night and this morning I woke myself up from a dream. In my dream, I was crying and apparently making the "crying noise" for real. That is what woke me up...and let me tell you it was wayy to early. I took the dog out and went back to sleep for another hour or so. Then I was up, did the dishes, picked up a little bit then got ready and went to the movies. My friend Allison from work and I went to see Bride Wars....very good movie, I ever teared up a little. But what else is new..if you know me, you know I'm a crier. Anywho that was pretty much the extent of my weekend. Tomorrow is a new day...I am gonna get up early to go work out, and by early I'm talking like 8, then I have class at 2 and have to be at work at 3:30. Well stay tuned to hear about my last first day!

Mommy wow! I'm a big kid now!!

So it is official...I did it. I finally applied for my.very.first.full.time.job. AHHHHHHHH! So exciting and nerve wracking (racking?) all at the same time! I doubt I get it, because I'm exactly 4 months from graduation and add another week for the week of vacation I am going to take after graduation! (Which I'm already completely excited about). I'm gonna guess that the job is something they need filled asap, so I won't be disappointed if I don't get it. But at least I'm getting my name out there. Its a job with the state, in accounting, and I actually meet all of the qualifications, which I've been finding difficult since I am not yet eligible to sit for the CPA exam, nor will I be once I graduate. The pay isn't too bad, just a few thousand less than what some of my classmates will be earning at regional accounting firms, but a lot more than what I'm making now! Well, now that I finally made the first step you better believe I'm off and running! I am thrilled to be graduating and be embarking on a new journey! :))))

On another note, I've lost 8 pounds! Woohoo! Only about 30 left to go to meet my initial goal..

work out and cravings....

Well I didn't have to work until 3:30 today, so that gave me plenty of time to go work out this morning. I got there about 9, and it was really busy. I wasn't able to start on the elliptical machine like I normally do so I started my workout on the treadmill, then went to the bike. I have to say I'm pretty proud of myself for all the running I did on the treadmill. When I finally got to the elliptical machine, I almost died! Not literally, but I couldn't make it work! My legs were soo weak, they felt like jello! I was only able to do 10 minutes and then I quit. But I didn't quit completely, I stopped the elliptical machine, and then walked for about 15 minutes around the track. I've been trying to be really good with my diet also, but I get so weak when I do not eat much. Today I felt really sick when I got off work. I fixed some "real" food, with hopes that I'd feel better but that doesn't seem to be working yet. I did weigh myself today, and I've lost about 6 or 7 pounds.. Not too bad considering its only been 3 full weeks and there were all the holidays..only 33 more to go. I hope to get there early in the morning and be able to use the elliptical first, that way I can actually do my full workout.

I am having some cravings for food I haven't ate in awhile.... ice cream, Chinese, and pizza.. I hope I am able to fight the cravings...but man I could totally go for a Resse Cup blizzard, General Tso's chicken or a meat lovers pizza.....

It's a new year, but I have not changed..

It's a new year....

I have decided not to make any New Year resolutions this year. I never focus on them so what is the point?! My past resolutions have been all the same, loose weight, become more organized, spend more time with friends..blah blah blah... I have decided to loose weight, however it wasn't a thing for the New Year; I didn't join the gym on January 1st, instead I joined on December 14th. I have been really trying to make it to the gym but the holidays have kind of made it difficult. But now, there is no more excuses. I mean I even went today, after been struck with a hint of the stomach flu this morning. I did however cut the workout about 10 minutes short today, I did 30 minutes on the elliptical, 20 minutes on the bike, and 30 minutes on the treadmill. The past few times I've gone, I've been working out for 1 hour and 30 minutes. I want to keep that up, it was just today I wasn't feeling so hot. I should be able to work out every day this week, my work schedule is minimal and school doesn't start until next week.


...but I have not changed.

I was hoping I'd be able to spill out my thoughts in this blog, but that has not been possible for me to do. I always have so much going through my mind, especially today. I wish I was able to put it out there for everyone to read, but that is not easy for me to do. I can't just open up and let everyone know what is in my head. It seems as though every time I do let someone inside my head, I make a fool of myself and it is usually a bad outcome. I like to say things without actually saying them....

As of right now, the basic way to describe my thoughts is to say I loathe uncertainty and the fact that it exists in every aspect of my life. Call me a control freak but I like to know, everything. When uncertainty exists, my mind wanders. I go through the million (or two or three) possible outcomes. It wears me out, but I can not help it. I would not mind to wake up tomorrow and know ever single detail of the rest of my life. I know it would take the surprise and anticipation out of it, but I do not care. At least I would know, without any uncertainty, what was going to happen.