Analyzing

I'm ready for a change! I'm so tired of the boring life I live. I want to move away..not too far though, just to Indianapolis or the surrounding area. However, I can't do that until I find a job. I am currently in contention (as far as I know) for another analyst job. I am so hopeful that I get this one. Not only because it is a "real" job, but because it just seems so interesting. I honestly think that I have found what I really want to do. Regardless of whether or not I get this position, I think I want to find a job as an analyst. I truly enjoy analyzing everything, and by enjoy, I mean I am always analyzing something. I would have to say sometimes I over-analyze things in my life and that doesn't always work in my favor. Maybe if I could put this natural trait to use I would be very successful!

I have a confession....

...I feel lost! Its crazy to think I might be done with school forever. As much as I hate it, I have to say I might miss it. For as long as I can possibly remember, I've been in school. It is just something that becomes a part of you and when its over, you kind of miss.. Does that make me crazy?! Yeah, I'm sure it probably is, but oh well. I never claimed to be sane! :)

Well, its back to work tomorrow. I think that if I had a "real" job I wouldn't be so scared about being done with school. It makes me very disappointed to think that just a couple of months ago I was so very close to having my dream job. What disappoints me even more is that I was so close, completely qualified, just had less time in the bank than the other individual.

I'm not looking forward to work at all. This past week has been absolutely amazing...well until I came home, as I mentioned before. It is so boring at home, especially being alone. Hopefully this week I will be able to keep myself occupied, I mean I am working every day!

Although I'm not looking forward to this week at work, I'm ready to get to the weekend because I get to see the boyfriend! I'm not sure if I'm going up there or if he is coming down here, but either way I will get to see him..At least that gives me some motivation to get through the week!

I will probably update tomorrow after I get home from work. I'm sure I've missed a lot in the short week I've been gone! I wonder what new craziness has came up....oh the suspense! :)

Finally graduated!

I finally graduated! I say finally because it seems like I've been waiting for this day forever, however, I did finish in four years. I ended up with a 3.58 gpa....could have been better but not bad considering the circumstances. I now have my bachelor's in accounting and forensic accounting. I'm still looking for a full time job. I'm not entirely positive what I want to do but I do want to move to Indianapolis or stay in the Terre Haute area - if I have to.

Now that I have graduated there is not much planned - just work and job search. I took the last week off and spent most of the week in Indianpolis with my boyfriend. It was very nice to get away for a few days with no worries. I came home last night and today has been a total bore! I have always said I would love to not have to work but let me tell ya, being home alone is so boring! I guess if there were people around to keep me company it wouldn't be so bad. I go back to work on Monday and work a crazy 38.75 hours! I'm not complaining though, I'm going to love making that money since I'm used to working 15-20 hours!

I want to try and blog more often now that things have slowed down, but who knows if I will. I'm really not an exciting person so I'm not for sure what I'll write about! Anyways, until next time...

Lacy

Sixth picture in the sixth file...

So I am not sure I have any readers other than Rachel, but Rachel tagged me on this, so I'm going to do it. Here is what I'm doing, I'm going to my sixth photo file and posting the sixth picture. Then I'm going to talk about it.. I had two ways to go here, I have some pictures that in my photos and some pictures that are in my shared files...so I picked the best one to talk about...


Okay, so this picture is from about 2 1/2 years ago. I went to West Virginia with a group from school. We went white water rafting and rock climbing. Obviously this is rock climbing. We had to propel down the side of a cliff. It was very scary, and I'm not going to lie I was pretty much in tears. This picture however is me pretending to climb back up. I wanted to get my picture taking and this is as far as I would go.

I'm not tagging anyone because I don't think there is anyone other than Rachel out there to do this and well since she already did, I'm not gonna ask her to do it again.

I ran a mile today!

Well I had earlier set a goal to run an 11 minute mile by my birthday. Well today I ran a mile in 12 minutes...without stopping! I'm so close to that goal that it makes me excited to reach my other goals. I had a really great workout today in addition to the 12 minute mile. I did 30 minutes on the elliptical and bike and then a total of 20 minutes on the treadmill. I also did the weight machines today...my arms are shaking from them I think. I'm glad to know that me working out has inspired others to do the same because that is how I got working out. Thanks to Jeni, I'm now setting myself up to change my life. Its not just about losing the weight, its about getting healthier and making better choices!

My very last day of Christmas break....ever!

Thank goodness! I am just wrapping up my very last Christmas break and getting ready to start my last semester.. This weekend was a decent weekend. On Friday, I worked all day and then came home and did some worrying...It wasn't my typical worrying, I was unable to get ahold of someone and I was worried that something was wrong. But nothing was, just an issue with a cell phone. Saturday I worked, then went to a newer casino. It was a good time. I took $100 with me and came home with $300. Not to shabby! Too bad it barely makes a difference due to the fact that my hours have been cut at work due to my school schedule. We got home kind of late last night and this morning I woke myself up from a dream. In my dream, I was crying and apparently making the "crying noise" for real. That is what woke me up...and let me tell you it was wayy to early. I took the dog out and went back to sleep for another hour or so. Then I was up, did the dishes, picked up a little bit then got ready and went to the movies. My friend Allison from work and I went to see Bride Wars....very good movie, I ever teared up a little. But what else is new..if you know me, you know I'm a crier. Anywho that was pretty much the extent of my weekend. Tomorrow is a new day...I am gonna get up early to go work out, and by early I'm talking like 8, then I have class at 2 and have to be at work at 3:30. Well stay tuned to hear about my last first day!

Mommy wow! I'm a big kid now!!

So it is official...I did it. I finally applied for my.very.first.full.time.job. AHHHHHHHH! So exciting and nerve wracking (racking?) all at the same time! I doubt I get it, because I'm exactly 4 months from graduation and add another week for the week of vacation I am going to take after graduation! (Which I'm already completely excited about). I'm gonna guess that the job is something they need filled asap, so I won't be disappointed if I don't get it. But at least I'm getting my name out there. Its a job with the state, in accounting, and I actually meet all of the qualifications, which I've been finding difficult since I am not yet eligible to sit for the CPA exam, nor will I be once I graduate. The pay isn't too bad, just a few thousand less than what some of my classmates will be earning at regional accounting firms, but a lot more than what I'm making now! Well, now that I finally made the first step you better believe I'm off and running! I am thrilled to be graduating and be embarking on a new journey! :))))

On another note, I've lost 8 pounds! Woohoo! Only about 30 left to go to meet my initial goal..

work out and cravings....

Well I didn't have to work until 3:30 today, so that gave me plenty of time to go work out this morning. I got there about 9, and it was really busy. I wasn't able to start on the elliptical machine like I normally do so I started my workout on the treadmill, then went to the bike. I have to say I'm pretty proud of myself for all the running I did on the treadmill. When I finally got to the elliptical machine, I almost died! Not literally, but I couldn't make it work! My legs were soo weak, they felt like jello! I was only able to do 10 minutes and then I quit. But I didn't quit completely, I stopped the elliptical machine, and then walked for about 15 minutes around the track. I've been trying to be really good with my diet also, but I get so weak when I do not eat much. Today I felt really sick when I got off work. I fixed some "real" food, with hopes that I'd feel better but that doesn't seem to be working yet. I did weigh myself today, and I've lost about 6 or 7 pounds.. Not too bad considering its only been 3 full weeks and there were all the holidays..only 33 more to go. I hope to get there early in the morning and be able to use the elliptical first, that way I can actually do my full workout.

I am having some cravings for food I haven't ate in awhile.... ice cream, Chinese, and pizza.. I hope I am able to fight the cravings...but man I could totally go for a Resse Cup blizzard, General Tso's chicken or a meat lovers pizza.....

It's a new year, but I have not changed..

It's a new year....

I have decided not to make any New Year resolutions this year. I never focus on them so what is the point?! My past resolutions have been all the same, loose weight, become more organized, spend more time with friends..blah blah blah... I have decided to loose weight, however it wasn't a thing for the New Year; I didn't join the gym on January 1st, instead I joined on December 14th. I have been really trying to make it to the gym but the holidays have kind of made it difficult. But now, there is no more excuses. I mean I even went today, after been struck with a hint of the stomach flu this morning. I did however cut the workout about 10 minutes short today, I did 30 minutes on the elliptical, 20 minutes on the bike, and 30 minutes on the treadmill. The past few times I've gone, I've been working out for 1 hour and 30 minutes. I want to keep that up, it was just today I wasn't feeling so hot. I should be able to work out every day this week, my work schedule is minimal and school doesn't start until next week.


...but I have not changed.

I was hoping I'd be able to spill out my thoughts in this blog, but that has not been possible for me to do. I always have so much going through my mind, especially today. I wish I was able to put it out there for everyone to read, but that is not easy for me to do. I can't just open up and let everyone know what is in my head. It seems as though every time I do let someone inside my head, I make a fool of myself and it is usually a bad outcome. I like to say things without actually saying them....

As of right now, the basic way to describe my thoughts is to say I loathe uncertainty and the fact that it exists in every aspect of my life. Call me a control freak but I like to know, everything. When uncertainty exists, my mind wanders. I go through the million (or two or three) possible outcomes. It wears me out, but I can not help it. I would not mind to wake up tomorrow and know ever single detail of the rest of my life. I know it would take the surprise and anticipation out of it, but I do not care. At least I would know, without any uncertainty, what was going to happen.

Christmas Eve!!

First of all, Merry Christmas everybody! I hope everyone gets to spend time with their families and the people that mean the most to them.

I have a slightly busy day today...but I am taking a minute to blog. I was up at 6 am this morning...why you ask..good ol' Ripley Roo wanted to go outside.. So after taking him out, I came back inside and played around online a little bit, then decided I wasn't going to be able to go back to sleep, so I might as well get up and go work out. Today I did 30 minutes on the eliptical machine, 20 minutes on the recumbent bike, and 30 minutes on the treadmill. I wanted to do just a little extra to make up for the fact that I didn't make it to the gym tomorrow, nor will I be going tomorrow...and to make up for all the yummy food I will be eating over the next 2 days. I tried to run on the treadmill...tried being the key word...it was awful, the most embarrassing thing ever! I was dying. I only wanted to run 1/2 a mile, but instead it ended up being 2/10 of a mile...so after that debacle I decided to walk..but speed walk ya know. So I have set a new goal.... I want to be able to "easily" run an 11 minute mile by my birthday..We'll see how it goes. I know that isn't super fast or anything, but for me that would be an accomplishment.

Here are the rest of my plans for today.... go to the post office, do laundry, clean house, wrap 2 Christmas presents, take a nap, another shower, and get ready for Christmas Eve at Aunt BJ's house.... This doesn't seem like a lot..but since my washer is broken, I must take my laundry to the other house to do it...boo..Oh well at least we have a nice new t.v. there and they finally got cable!

Weekend...

I have had a really good weekend so far! Friday I worked all day then went out for dinner and drinks with Kristy and Kyla, some friends of mine who I used to work with. Saturday morning I worked, then came home and cleaned house, took a long nap, then went out with Jordan who is a coworker of mine at the bank. I got about 4 hours of sleep this morning, then went to town with my mom. We finished up her Christmas shopping. I think I'm finally starting to get into the Christmas spirit. When we got home, another coworker of mine, Allison, called and asked if I wanted to go see a movie. Her sister went and saw Twilight, and said it was one of the best movies she had ever seen, so that is what we're going to watch. I'll let ya know what I think of it later. I really wanted to work out today, but since the movie started at 3, I debated on going. The gym is only open 1-5 on Sundays, and I was afraid I would be cutting it close on time if I went at 1..but I did it anyways. I only did 1/2 hour on the elliptical machine, but I'm just glad I went. I burnt 375 calories..Anyway, I just got out of the shower, so now I need to fix my hair and head to town! I hope traffic isn't bad, but I know it will be!

I'm starting to get addicted..

So before starting my blog, I was an avid reader of a couple of blogs... However, the time I spent reading their blogs is now spent writing my own. I'm not much of a commenter, so sorry if I don't comment...but I am going to ask if you are reading this comment and let me know! I know Rachel is reading it, and I read your blog too Rachel, but who knows if anyone else is.

Well I did go work out this morning. I was planning to go to the Zumba class, but I was the only one there for it, and they need 3 people....so instead I did my normal machines..I added in a new one, but only lasted for 10 minutes...it was so boring and I felt like I was wasting my time. I ended up with 1 hr 10 minutes of cardio today.. The gym has a "media center".. I think that is what they call it. There are 4 tvs tuned to ESPN, HGTV, CNN, and CBS and the machines have a little contraption on them that allows you to put in headphones and choose which t.v. you want to hear. Today was the first day I used it, usually I just listen to my iPod. I will have to say that watching HGTV certainly passed the time quicker than my iPod... I won't be able to go tomorrow or Saturday this week. I think I need a break though.. so I will not get all worked up about not going. Instead I'll do some sit ups and push ups with my exercise ball at home. I'm sorry if you get bored reading about this...Next time just skip to the 2nd paragraph!

Here are some other mindless things...
1. I can't wait to graduate.. I need to get the heck out of here!
2. My dog is driving my insane...but I still love him dearly.
3. It is unbelievable to me, but I am soo not in the Christmas spirit.. I feel like a scrooge. Maybe the Christmas party at work tomorrow will help.
4. It has been like a month since I cried, and today I had a breakdown... It had definetly built up.
5. I absolutely hate when I am trying to explain something to someone and they cut me off insisting I am wrong!
6. I dealt with a paranoid schizoprenic yesterday, and it was probably the highlight of my week. I could have argued with that guy all day, but that is so unprofessional.
7. I am so glad tomorrow is Friday!!!

Wednesday

Well its only 7:07 am and I've already got my work-out in. I went early this morning because I was supposed to have a dentist appointment at 8:30 and then work at 10. Well that canceled my dentist appointment because the roads are nothing but ice. I'm not upset or anything about that, it just sucks because I would have slept a couple more hours before working out..oh well I feel great about going this morning. I was afraid it would be hard to do it but it wasn't that bad. I've been doing pretty good with my diet too. Except for yesterday, I splurged and ate at TGI Fridays around 2. My mom and I split an appetizer and our entree so I think that makes it not so bad.. Either way, I feel like I'm doing pretty good other than that.

FYI

So my computer is working! Yay! I also won $100, which kind of makes up for spending nearly $100 on the new charger! These two good things happened after I 1.) Hit my elbow on the car after I almost fell on the ice while attempting to get out of my car, and 2.) the crack on my windshield (from a rock a few months ago) spidered into a huge C looking thing across my window.

I was totally just thinking about going to bed, then realized I was missing the finale of Biggest Loser! Jezze what was I thinking!?!?! Well I'm off to watch that and then to bed. I'll be up at 5 am to go work out tomorrow.. I have to go early because I have a dentist appointment at 8:30 and work at 10..Busy busy day!

I'm not good at coming up with blog titles...

So its Tuesday, and today was the third day I worked out. Yesterday I did the same cardio from the day before, but today I went to a Zumba class. This was my first time doing Zumba at the new gym, and I was worried it wouldn't be as intense as the Zumba classes I used to. It was a lot less crowded and not as intense, but it was still fun. I felt like I was getting a workout, but thats probably because I am incredibly out of shape! Zumba is only two days a week so my plan for the next class is to also do a half hour of cardio before that way I really do get a good workout. My legs are a little sore but its nothing I can't tolerate. I plan to be there again tomorrow, only this time it will be bright and early at 5:30 am.

Now on to other less important and boring things. I am currently without a computer at my house! Right now, I am at my mom's house using the desktop. Here is the story about my laptop.... Back in March, I went on vacation to Florida and took my computer along. The charger, which worked perfectly fine before vacation, quit working on like day 2. I was disappointed because for a whole week, I would be without internet. When I came home, I got the other charger out and it worked perfectly fine...until about a month ago. I have been having the same trouble. It seems like something is messed up on the cord near the part that plugs into the back of the computer. Well I had been fighting with it for awhile and finally got a new one ordered off of e-bay. Bad idea. It didn't work! I was a little upset, okay more than a little, but you would be too! Well finally on Sunday, the charger that was halfway working finally quit! I decided to order a new one off of the Dell website...$69.99! Plus the 19.99 I paid for overnight shipping! I figured I'd be in business now, no worries and everything would be okay...until I talked to a girl at work! She had been having the same problem with her laptop, and now it won't work at all, even after getting a new charger! Her husband took it apart and said there is something loose on the circuit board... :( I will be very upset if this happens to mine! I only have a semester left of school, it would be really nice if it would just hold up long enough for me to graduate! I will let ya know how it works out for me later today...the charger should be here soon!

And a few odds and ends....
The bank in my hometown got robbed today..thankfully it wasn't where I work!
I'm a terrible Christmas shopper..I never know what to buy for people!
It is really freaking cold here right now!
I'm jealous of people who make it through college in 3 1/2 years...who does that?!?!
#9 on the new Taylor Swift cd is my new favorite song!! Thanks Rachel!

A new journey!

After much talk, I finally did it. Did what you ask? I finally joined a gym. I decided that I wanted to loose 40 pounds before I graduate college and I know its going to take more than a weight watchers diet to accomplish that. The first 30 lbs will probably come off pretty easy, I usually vary between my current weight and about 30 lbs lighter when I'm doing weight watchers. Anywho, today I went to a nearby gym and worked out. I did 1 hour of cardio. I wanted to give up about 20 minutes through the first machine, which was the elliptical, but I kept pushing on. Then I got on the bike...which at first I hated. I almost quit after about 10 minutes on it but I knew that if I quit I would probably be mad at myself. I ended up doing 30 minutes on each machine. I actually feel relatively good, except for the little cough I always get when I do any type of heavy cardio. I may not be able to walk tomorrow, but that is another story. I plan to be there in the morning to do the same thing. Maybe once I build up my endurance on the cardio machines, I will work in some weight training. Until then though, I plan to do at least 1 hour of cardio 5 days a week, but probably 6.

Saturday...

Today is Saturday..clearly... I don't know what to do with myself. It is Christmas break, so I have no homework.. That is what I normally do on Saturdays...that and work..and I've already worked today. I am planning to go out tonight, but that won't be until later...much later...like 9 or so. I could sit here and play around on the internet but that just seems like a waste of time. I could go back into town and shop, but its not worth the gas when I've already been there once today and I'm going back tonight. I made some lunch and since I had the oven on, I decided to bake some chicken that was in the freezer. That is still in the oven, so once its finished, I will probably go to Wal-Mart and to the movie store to return a movie. I don't really need anything from Wal-Mart, I just can't sit in the house with nothing to do! I get crazy being in the house all day sometimes. There are times when I can lay in bed all day and not think twice about it, but usually thats when I've been working a lot or had a lot to do for school. But I have been getting plenty of sleep lately so I'm not in the mood to be lazy. If I get bored after being home for 2 hours, I wonder what will happen if the day ever comes when I don't have to work..hmm...I will probably never be able to not work, so I guess I don't need to worry about it!

Work was insanely busy today! At least in the drive-thru... We had customers inside the bank and in the drive-thru until nearly 12:10...It is so frustrating sometimes, but isn't every job? We are located on the south end of town near all the shopping so the next couple of weeks will be just the same.

My first blog!

Well, I have finally decided to set up a blog. I don't really know how long I will keep this up because I'm not one to share my feelings with the world..sometimes I can't even share them with my friends. But hopefully this will turn out to be something worthwhile.

Hopefully the people reading this will be people I know, but just for starters, my name is Lacy and I'm 21. I'm a senior in college and will be graduating in a very short 5 months. I'm nervous and apprehensive about graduating college..I'm not sure what I will be doing when this chapter of my life is over, but I'm hopeful that it will be something great!

Well that is all for now, stay tuned for more!